Change. I hardly have to write much when it comes to this because most of you understand the complicated, yet somehow uncomplicated, inevitableness of change in our lives. Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about change and how I really feel about the concept.
I have mixed emotions about it if I’m being honest here.
I touched on the topic briefly in my last update, Pick Me, Choose Me, Love Me, however, the touch did not fully express what I’m getting at here.
Everything in my life seems to be changing. I thought the feeling would pass, as many of my feelings eventually do, but not this time. I think God is teaching me something through these feelings I have. It started when we left Colorado, so I thought that maybe it would pass after my Rocky Mountain High did, and then when it didn’t, I felt like maybe it was just the “post LT depression” that was discussed after LT closing ceremonies. I don’t think it’s that though. After a lot of thought and prayer, it has hit me that it might be a lesson that my Good Father is trying to teach me.
So, everything is changing, that much is true. I think it’s easy to allow your mind to spiral out of control when it comes to change, so I want us to focus on as much of the Truth as possible here.
The truth is that it’s all changing, yes, but we can’t change that.
A bit ironic, isn’t it?
I always hate it when people say, “look at the bright side,” because I think it can be invalidating for a person’s heart and feelings, but I want you to know when I say it, I say it knowing how I feel as I write this. I say it knowing that you’re frustrated, that you’re doing all you can, that you feel spread too thin. I say it knowing that you’re hurting. I say it knowing that right now, it really sucks.
I don’t say it because I don’t want to think about everything that’s changing, even though that sounds so tempting.
I say it because I want you to know, as hard as it can be to see it, that there is a bright side to this whole change thing.
I don’t specifically know, even for myself, how to pick out the shiny part of my circumstances and choose to dwell on that. I think that generally though, there are a few shiny parts to change that we all can at least try to look toward.
I warn you though, you might need sunglasses, this is pretty shiny stuff here.
- Change allows us to grow.
One of my favorite things to tell people is “don’t change, instead, grow,” because when you think about it, a flower is always a flower (maybe except for the part that it’s a seed, but I’m trying to be metaphorical here), but even when it grows, it’s still a flower. Plus, the last thing we want is to stay the same forever. One hairstyle will inevitably get old eventually; maybe this season you’re in is kind of like a hairstyle that needs some changing.
2. Change is kind of beautiful.
Maybe it’s a little basic for my taste, but I love autumn. I’m not the college girl that drinks Starbucks pumpkin spice latte’s or anything like that, but I can’t help but get a little smiley when the leaves start falling and turning different colors. Especially in Kent. I love Kent’s Fall season— it gets stunning out here. There’s just something about a leaf that’s three different shades of green and somehow by God and His science, there’s red there too. I know it’s rough, but I’m choosing to believe that this is my autumn.
3. Change is the harbinger of opportunity.
Again, it’s a little cliche for my taste, but I can’t help but see the opportunity that God has given me through the changes that He’s bringing. Probably the greatest opportunity that I can see for myself is the chance to get closer to Abba, to actually know Him deeper through this.
4. A stagnant life is status quo.
Remember in High School Musical when the cast swarmed the cafeteria room and sang about how different they all were, but then were immediately shot down for what they thought was cool? Yeah, maybe it’s easy to stick to the status quo, I mean, it’s what you know, right? But isn’t the point of that song to tell us that we should embrace our differences and just be ourselves? It’s the same way with a stagnant lifestyle. Let’s not be the Sharpay’s of our own stories here.
One thing I’ve learned in life is that there are two things you can rely on above all else.
God and change; God because He never changes, and change because it’s inevitable.
When you don’t like change—and trust me, I’m right there with ya—remember that the fear of change is a feeling you can change.
“See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.”